No dear brothers and sisters I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, I Press on to reach the end of the race and recieve the heavenly prize for which god, through Christ Jesus is calling us. Philippians 3:13-14

Thinking of holiness I think about commitments and things I have set out to do. I have dedicated this year to the Lord, well my life actully, but speciffically right now my life is at The War College. It is a race, so much expected, so much growing, so much to endure. My task is to run this race full speed with all that I have to offer without holding back or cutting corners. I desire to live out and walk out all that The War college desires to accomplish. I want to experience what God has for me in fullness. I struggle with the temptation to take easy ways out or coast through, and listening to lies of defeat. But I want to be able to look behind me at what I had accomplished knowing I had ran the race and truly won the prize. I think it matches well with my name of being more then a conqueror, living up to that name and living up to my potential. Being obediant and doing what I know is right really helps in my endeavor to be holy an also running this race of war college, this race of life. Success in walking in obedience adds to my seperation of sin to be holy. I can throw off the sin that is on me and slows me down to hinder me. It is what I have been commanded to do. I will do it, I can be holy, and I am holy! Hallelujah!

I am very excited about holiness, I am currently in a place of putting to practice that excitment. I have choosen life, and the old has past and new has come!

All there is of me, Lord,

All there is of me,

Time and talents, day by day,

All I bring to thee;

All there is of me, Lord,

All there is of me,

On thine alter here I lay

All there is of me

SASB chorus section # 34

"I'll love you forever, I'll like you for always, as long as I'm living my baby you'll be."

Tonight before league of mercy courtney read me the book I'll love you forever. dude i almost cried. It is a great book. It reminded me of my mom so much. my mom called me her baby right up till the end. that line was basically what she said to me always no matter what through it all. So hearing that childrens story reminded me of my mom and made me miss her. I want to hear her say she loves me, I miss her a lot. Take away all the sillyness and hurt and hardness we went through, the thing that is true she loved me lots, and we had good memories, and spent good times together. at the end in the story the mans mom is old and dyeing, and she rocks her to sleep and sings to her "I'll love you forever I'll like you for always as long as I'm living my Mommy you'll be." It is true, i love her forever.

 So faith is cool, its cool how it can stretch and grow and how its possible because of God. Everything i desire right now can only be done by faith, stepping out and faith and trusting the Lord. freedom and worship faith is needed, speaking in tounges, faith is needed, beliving truth, faith is needed, and hearing from the Lord and spekaing it out, faith is needed!

We have a class called holy space, um it varies each week what it is and what it looks like, buts its lotsa worshiping in spirit and praying and hearing from the lord, and also working through things and more.Well today in holy space we did a bunch of profetic activations because we have run out of time to do them in extreme profetic class. man being profetic is so scarey and hard, man my faith  is being streched so much to do this. buts i am hearing form the Lord! PTL! we did one where half of us stood facing the wall with our eyes closed not aware of who was behind us to profesy to but man jeni tricked me, she stood behind me so i would get a word for her, welll maybe not tricked, and it wasn't that bad either, actully what i got resonated well with her and so it was pretty sweet, and encouraging. but man i totally knew at some point it was her even though my eyes were closed, i just  sensed it or felt its! ooolalala!

for extreme prophetic we have to do a prphet study and present it in class. I chose Jonah. mostly cuz i like the veggie tales movie, and hoped to get ahold of a copy to watch it. still hasnt happened. but the storys pretty simple, well his prophetic life, he hears form God a message to give to a bunch of people, needs to go and tell them. I see i big lesson of the importance of obedience. I can relate to being fearful becuase of things God may say so me, and the unthinkable, can even relate to time of being prideful to be against others, because i think that was a big reason he ran the opposite direction, they were a different type of people who he didnt like.

so as i learn about prophets, and being prophetic, i hope that God would keep me humble, and make me more and more humble, that i would not loose sight of what is true. buts i am pretty excited about all this!

heres a song thats been on my heart for a few weeks now, i heard it when i was in seattle at a International house of prayer, prayer conference.